i waited for pain and it did not come for me

"have you ever felt that there is something missing ? something lost ? something incomplete ? you can't tell if it's missing or simply undiscovered".

things are coming strong and still you can't feel anything but sympathy to those who are affected with much pain and sorrow. and now the current is on your way, still you'd stand and let it flow without feeling much about it.

not knowing what you're capable of, you simply decided to let the current blow you from where you're standing. 

as time passes, you realize how easy the flow was. you let your guard down and caught every thing there was to be caught. AND YOU WERE AS WELL, WAS CAUGHT BY IT.

at that time, you didn't know what to do. it was your first yet you're uneducated about it. 

with that, you made mistakes, you cursed those who murdered your innocence and cried yourself to sleep. you promised to never do the same way that you did. 

it stoned your heart thinking it would save you from pain and flood of tears. not knowing that fate, once again, planned to strike back, testing your strength.

with things moving on the same pace, fate would strike catching you off guard. and it did. 

this time, it felt hot, rough and even harder than before. you wished for it to just fade and be gone for the hell of it. but it's just there already. something you can't stop.

no matter how many turns you take, you'd still find yourself facing the same end or better yet, the same START. it's a crazy maze. you're already lost with its mysterious and risky turns yet you found someone to be lost with. 

someone to be happy, to be sad and angry with every wrong turn you make.  someone to laugh with and to cherish every night and day. 

" i just wish that it didn't happen to me with someone so complex and yet he could turn things into something quite simple."

-- there are things that you wouldn't understand but i trust, with all my heart that every bit of word is true as a diamond and as clear as a crystal...